The Complete 10th Year

December 24th, 2004, I bit my families and friends good bye just to find myself in a foreign land. Alone and scare. Things were different, strange languages, and different cultures.

Today, December 24th, 2014, 10 years later; I stepped on another foreign land. Though, I'm not gonna stay here another 10 years, gonna be here for a week or so just to pet myself on the back as I deserve it.

Remarkably, I made it this far. A long journey, all by myself but not always on my own. 10 years away from home and be independent, made lots of friends and like they said you can't make friends without making a few enemies.

I really appreciate everyone efforts and helps, thoughts, and cares, and loves. You are one of the reasons, I keep moving. Please continue be amazing as who you are and spread the loves and hopes to whoever you can. They said never look down at people, unless you lend a hand to lift them up.

I'll take this chance to wish everybody a very Merry Christmas and Wonderful New Year!

Dear God

Dear God,

The only thing I ask of you is to hold their hands when I'm not around. When I'm much too far away.

Cause I'm lonely, and I'm tired. I'm missing them very dearly.

Amen.

Perhaps, today is one of those days again. 

Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you

Is to hold her when I'm not around

When I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again, oh no...

Once again

There's nothing here for me, on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

And all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you

Is to hold her when I'm not around

When I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again, oh no...

Once again

Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in, to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

When hope begins to fade...

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you

Is to hold her when I'm not around

When I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again, oh no...

Once again 

Getting might be easy, maintaining is another thing

Relent

A lot has been happening for the past couple of months. There were ups and downs, it was exciting and yet thrilling and some hard decisions have to be made in such sort period.
I am so so stress and so blessed at the same time, just an odd mix feeling.
I just wanna lye down on the sun launcher and sipping beers, blankly starring to the sky, and shut down my mind some time.
Anyway, will be updating more soon. For now, this song keeps me hopes up.

Mumfords & Son - I will wait

Well I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun

But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground

'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

So break my step
And relent
Well you forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some ways
Shake the excess

And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

Now I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies

And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
Bow my head
Keep my heart slow

'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you

Songwriters
LOVETT, BENJAMIN WALTER DAVID / MUMFORD, MARCUS OLIVER JOHNSTONE / DWANE, EDWARD JAMES MILTON / MARSHALL, WINSTON AUBREY ALADAR

Slow down if you can

Life is moving fast, you've gotta learn, you've gotta do what you have to do; and you've gotta stand up when you fall. Stay focus, be challenging, be the challenge, most importantly stay positive.

You either learn it the hard way or if you're lucky enough you might have the appropriate classes to go through. Like having time to learn, to practice, to execute with time permit.

And it is moving so fast that at times you should slow down and enjoying the journey or you might miss the moment.

Today is not just another day, today is a new day that you can always start doing things you like, allow yourself to learn and explore. Good thing or bad thing is depend on your perspective.

p.s. I've just notice the view from my friend's balcony after being here so many times. It's indeed some view that could be quite spectacular.

Grace

For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace. [Romans 6:14]

Years from now...

If only I could

From the tone of your messages, I wish I could reach out to you and hold you tight and telling you that everything is gonna be ok. I really do, I couldn't.

For what it's worth, thing happen for a reason. It will either make you greater or teach you a lesson. Stay strong, pumpkin.

It's not about avoiding to be at home but then it is about avoiding to be at home. Especially home alone. Maybe I should watch "home alone"...