As I am typing this, my heart is virtually breaking into pieces. Others told me not to take into account for what people had done and treat and made things worst.

The love I gave, the friendship I made I only wish for a long lasting, trust and respects.

Today, I did not know what you've been through. I did not know what you have in mind. I just did not know. I only asked for what it should be done. If I knew it cause our relation I would not have ask.

Yes, you are right. I am regret for losing you now.

Today, I have -1 (minus one) friend. I couldn't help but to feel really sad.
Even though, things might be sound ridiculous and I shall not care but to move on.
I could use a hug right now. I asked if I could cry. A friend told me Cry if it makes you feel better. I wish I could cry right now.

Good bye, my little friend. I have always been sincere to you, you may not know but I am. I feel sorry if you could not understand me. I feel sorry that I could not understand you. I feel sorry for our lost.

That is how my day ended. :(

International KL Marathon 2009

I have always wanted to participate in any charity events. Always want to be one of the volunteers who wish for nothing but to help out. In such events, I might have not done so much, but I'll try my best.
As some of you may know that myself, Dennis and Jenn Ting attempt to participate the International KL Marathon 2009. And yes we did it, not just to attempt hehe

As I speak and had participated, it was not the charity alone that had pulled my guts and made me one of the runners. I have another checked box in my 40th things I should do before I die, and to try out and to have faith in my own self, I proved that I could do it just like any other open soul.

myself with an unsure facial expression and the race pack

We got up around 4am, get ready, had breakfast and head to Dataran Merdeka for the excitement events of the day.

Jenn Ting and Me

Dennis and Me

Jenn Ting and Dennis
[pardon the stretching pose, they were just too excited]

we were so ready~


and so were the other 5,097 runners
[the number were roughly gave by the MC that we had 5100 runners for the 10km run]

By the dawn break, we found ourselves at the finishing line with an excited and happy faces

We glad we made it

Dennis and Ted

myself, little bit in red and heat... really happy for myself

Dennis with a proud present

the Medal

for the 10 KM Finisher

Dennis

Jenn Ting

kopiais

I have set some targets that I should archived in 2009. I have flew for 4 times, participated in two marathons in the last 6 months. Those were something that I have never done before in such period.

Folks, just remember, always look out for yourself and have faith.

p.s. all photos were taken from Dennis. Check out more photo @ his facebook :)

short updates
- Collected the race kit on Saturday, little freak out.
- Went to Mid Valley for shopping to calm myself down...hehe
- Went to Chilli's for dinner, like it.
- Watched Fighting, not bad...but pretty tired... because I thought I was in the fight T_T
- Update twitter like nobody business but it never updated...cilaka
- Participated the 10km KL Marathon and i made in time *tearing-eyes*
- Little over excited on the medal [the cheap one la]
- Went to Manhattan Fish Market for celebration haha
- Continue shopping for a bit @The Curve
- Watched Transformer 2, love it.
- Knock off while watching movie because too tired T_T, anybody care to watch with me *again*?
- Went to Laundry Bar to catch some drinks with bosses and colleagues
- Again, twitter not update.... whatthefuck
- Went to Korean BBQ for dinner *oink-oink*
- I'm too tired to do anything now, update the entire things tomorrow lah hor XD
- Til then...Sleep well and Good night...

p.s. I had a great weekend, but I miss you a lot...just couldn't get you off my mind.

short updates
- I'm all packed up with plans this weekend
- Packed my bag and go out
- Rough days @ work for a week t[-_-]t
- Packed my bag and ready to move on
- Met cousinssssssssss in facebook... hmmm they are so cute, i miss them alot
- Busy @ work yet I felt nothing started to work out...
- Heard a not so good new from home
- Pray hard and hoping Mother is doing alright [Please GOD, if you've ever want to do anything, just do it on me, would you?]
- Gave some thought about tomorrow marathon... O.O|||
- Ohhh Swing Jazz.... so great....
- Looking forward to tomorrow movie ^_^, oh yeah, Traaaansformerrrr beibeh~~!!
- Gave second thought about the marathon.... f*** man -__-|||
- Going to Bukit Jalil Merdeka Square after work later [over heard it's gonna be packed over there~~ amen!!]
- til then.. Have a great weekend :)

morling good pplz

Bitter Heart by Zee Avi

Me Love this song very very the much ^_^

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,

Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,

Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

Hope you like it too :)

word of the day

Patronize : (pa·tron·ize) tr.v., -ized, -iz·ing, -iz·es.

1. To act as a patron to; support or sponsor.
2. To go to as a customer, especially on a regular basis.
3. To treat in a condescending manner.

IN BRIEF: To exercise an arrogant condescension toward.

*freaking.out.mode*

O.O||

I'm freaking out.

It's 4th week of June.

Oh God!!

Time is passing me by...T______T Just like that?

Huuuuuuuuuuhhhgggggggggg *breath*breath*

What have I done this passed half year??

Oh God!!

I am still freaking out!!

O.O|||

short updates:

- been in the lab for whole day, nothing seem to be very progressive O.o|||
- here is my dinner

high class cup noodle haha

- I still want cupcakes!! T_____T

It's the Lab . . .

Lately I've not been anywhere but Lab. Yes, MMU's lab. The lab, the lab that we do our reseach, it is... the lab.
Well there are things in the lab that make me feel comfortable going and sitting there for hours or sometime till dawn even after my 12 hours of office working.

What not to like, I could study, lepak and have fun at the same time hahahaha.
Here, the lab, is the the second place that I spent tremendously such long hours in...
Well, of course the first winner would goes to my Office!! lolz

You wanna know what happen to my house? Errmmmm I stock my stuffs and take shower there hahahaha Just kidding, I just spend less time there, that's it.

We can have supper anytime muahaha because we just love to eat, don't we??

And recently I bought my favorite liqueur and stock in the lab. Hahaha yeah, that is just too much, isn't it? But well, after a long working day, we would like a sip of heaven, don't you think ? hehe

heavenly Bailey Irish Cream


Vanilla Flavor Mille Crepe Cake



Chocolate Flavor

The Mille crepe cakes are from Food Foundry, They are so wonderful...

Thanks to Uncle John for the cakes

The Irish cream goes very well with mille crepe cakes

John's suggestion: mille crepe and espresso.
That sound great hehe will give it a try

Dai Lou tried to digest the liqueur hehehe
He's not much a drinker...
Come to think of it, only me, John and Clement could drink heh...

Clement who help me bought the liqueur from Langkawi, thanks man!!

Some might say, my routine or my life such boring. After long day of working I have to spend more hours in the lab at school. But I don't see it that way. I have to do my research, well that's boring sometime, but hey~ there are time that is fun doing research.
Oh well, what the hell am I talking here, you wouldn't understand hehehe

Anyway, the two different environment just make my daily routine life not so boring, I guess. I work in a very scary political challenging place and at the same time I do research in a tech-savy peaceful friendly lab.

Sometime, I'd like to think I'm so blessed to have such opportunity to live this life. :)
I have great colleagues back in office and I have wonderful friends stick around in the lab.
I couldn't ask for more.


p.s. I still could not find time to arrange my Cambodia and Kuching trip entries T______T will come back to that later....

Kiss Goodbye

Guilty adj., -i·er, -i·est.

1. Responsible for or chargeable with a reprehensible act; deserving of blame; culpable: guilty of cheating; the guilty party.
2. Law. Adjudged to have committed a crime.
3. Suffering from or prompted by a sense of guilt: a guilty conscience.
4. Hinting at or entailing guilt: a guilty smirk; a guilty secret. See synonyms at blameworthy.

short updates:

- Still in the office even though I'm not a roster [the term we used for the person who supposed to stay back]
- It was the peak period, Mr. roster ciao already!!
- Oh well, I think I should not stay in any relationship [at all] as long as I'm still working here.
- whatthefuck lah
- Got RATSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS in the office!!!
- Oh well I won't feel so lonely then
- *coughing-blood* back to work....

from Appreciation to Instruction

I just received an updates stated that we have to extend our daily hour supports.
If I'm not mistaken, I've signed a contract stated that I have to work only five and a half days a week, if the job requires me to extend my support then it is necessary that I should extend my supports.

Fine, this is upon request. Fair enough. But the latest update was not upon requests, it is an instruction that we must do such and such.

Apparently, we've got ourselves a six days a week job scope with minimum 11 hours per day.
What's sound to you?

Heh, it doesn't seem to work that way, does it?
My passion is running low and out.
Please guide me where can I redeem my life back...

When instrcution take place, the appreciation and loyalty will have to go.

random

Good Morning there :)

I woke up before 8am today....it's been awhile that I woke up such early on the Sunday morning and I feel so fresh and happy ^_^

never know Cyberia can be so silent on the Sunday morning

Hmmm where are the people!

some genius wrote this at MMU water dispenser area...
I'm so grateful, else I wouldn't know which side is hot which is cold ahahahahha =)) stupid!

hey this is good stuff, expresso with ice-cream (vanilla)

You've got to try it!! It's really really good... I love it!!

now I notice that I have not update on my Kuching trip yet O.o|||
Errmmmm next entry bah :P



Layer cake (from Kuching) with Carrot & Wolfberry juice



puppy and me

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do to make you feel my love

Alrighty, gotta get back to do some work....Hope you guys have a great Sunday ^_^

short updates:

- I am on leave today, not because of yesterday but I've got things to do outside office
- Yet, I am traumatized because of yesterday
- I need a soul to speak to
- *silent-tears*

I was pretty busy since I've got back from Kuching. Yes, I went to Kuching again last week, it's a business trip.
It was yet another dramatic politic trip in this year... Oh well, let's talk about that later on.

So this week, I've got myself pretty tide up with Local and offshore offices' work. I managed to get out for a bit to see some friends and get some sweat away...

Just before this I went to swim with a friend of mine (she did not want to be referred here). I have not been swimming for quite sometime til now. Let's see, I think since my last year Redang trip.

The pool look pretty tempting... so I jumped in just like I'm a super swimmer hahaha...

At this point... can you guess what happen already??





I swam half of the pool, feel quite tired already so I dare not to continue swimming (normally if I force I will have leg cramp) so I just start floating...


floating....



floating....



still floating....




then I remembered some thing that I have not finished.... so I stood up!


T______________T||


How the hell would you stand up in the middle of the pool when the high of the pool is deeper than yourself???

I tried, and tried and tried to move to the side of the pool...



Tried somemore.... somemore....


Breathing..... trying to move..... and breathing......


All I knew is I was still at ONE place but my breath was running out!!!
I kept moving, I kept pushing, I kept waving, I want to breath.... but I only drank water

T_________________________T

My friend saw me, she tried to help but couldn't help much because I think I moved too much already... so she changed strategy by pushing me and shouting!!

You know what I told myself while "nearly" drowning? (Yes, I was nearly drowning lah) I told myself to calm down and don't pull the person that coming to help me.... hahahahaha so stupid...

Anyway, they managed to push and pull me to the side.... I was saved and safe.

This is such one precious moment of life and I can really feel the it.
The beauty, the sadness, the love, the pain and the end of it...

A gazillion thank to my friend whom tried her best to save me T___T I'm so touched.
A gazillion thank to ah kak life guard that saved me T_____T

Mom, Dad, thank you for giving me life and let me living it to the max.... I love you both.

Love yourself, Live your life to the max and Growth through it!!