I've been away too long, too often

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
There's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me

That's how the song goes...

Remembering of my mom's long hugs, asked me to take good care and dad's longed face after he kissed goodbye at the airport.

...and my tears rolled down the cheeks while taking the flight back to KL.

I've never seen my dad with such sad face...
I guess I've been away too long, too often :(

We hold hands and talk.
As much as we embrace what we have together, there are certain things that we couldn't change but only to accept.
You know how miserable it is to break my very own heart and hopes.
I am deeply drowning in my own sorrow.
Decision is made to the point that it's not necessary to depend on/need anyone to live with happily anymore.
Remember, I'm always around.

What if I give up now?
The question is, will I be happier?
God, please hold my hands.

Girly Girly Stuffs

Last Saturday, I went for the facial treatment for the very first time. Hmm it still does sound a bit girly heh. Oh well, gotta try once at least to know what exactly it feels like hahaha

I went to Herbaline in Kajang area because my colleague, Swee Ping, knows that place... I supposed.

First thing first, we ate @ Pizzahut.

Salad

That's right, they served us with the chipped plat.

Cheesy Chicken Meatball, not bad.

Now, we headed to the saloon. After the girls explained to us what we need to do and stuffs we have gotta wash our feet first with salt water. O.o|| hahaha

Then we headed to the room to change cloth to sarong and lie down on the bed for the beauty treatment hahaha

Introduce: Swee Ping

We chose to do the cleanser double masks treatment which they will massage the face with moisturizers and put on masks for two times.
But... before the first mask, they have gotta press out the blackhead and whitehead... T___T" oh my... it's painful!
Heh surprisingly after all the torturing...our faces ain't red at all. They're really pro heh

A tiny tea break after the treatment before heading to the fish spa

Hello fishies

Get ready before polluting the fish tank ahahahah

Read the rules before you start!!

There we go...XD

Smile~
oppss cannot see the legs...

again~

smile~

I came back with some toner and gel to keep me girly for a while ahahahha

The treatment costs RM 114. The toner and gel... I sort of don't remember the price. :P

Hmmm maybe should put this to regular schedule. Oh well, we ain't getting any younger. lolz
When's the next time then?

b.u.s.y weeks

Very busy lah these two weeks... sigh...
Now blogging from the office...while waiting for the script to finish off generating... [hey! it's 9.30pm okay... I'm not using working hour to blog!!]

Very mad...
@ the people that rush me for n.o.t.h.i.n.g, they just rush for the sake of rushing.

Very tired...
@ repeated works and long day runs.

Very frustrated...
@ unprofessional working culture.

Very disappointed...
@ myself that couldn't manage and control to the better situation.

Dennis keep giving courage and telling me about the human [employee] limitation.
What for we want to pressure ourselves so much, because work will never finish one [sound very familiar...]. This is the best we can do, no one gonna kill us if we fail...

I understand what he said, but y'know the guilt feeling if we fail...

aihhhh I need to eat now!!

Hmmm I want to watch the Mummy III this weekend, who wanna join me??

Was trying to finish as many things as possible last night.
So I head home after 12 midnight.
Still have more energy so I decided to finish some more work at home.
[2.30am] seem like everything is okay...hmmmm may be I could shut down my brain and get some rest.

Can't sleep... hmmmm how arr...

Get a Crossword book and try to do it. Okay it works [X_x], I felt absolute tired after few minutes.

*beep*beep* set the alarm to wake up @ 8.30am!! Ah ha! I must get up late!!

after several minutes....

*beep*beep* re-set the alarm to wake up @ 8.00am... -__-"
nahhh I'll better taking my sweet time to go to work...rather than rushing.

That's right! No Rushing!!

[7.15am] Awaken!!... o_o the-usual-wake-up-time...shit...

roll over, left and right...

[7.44am] *beeeeeeeeeeppppp* A message recieved:

"Sophea, IT will set up the pc at the hall of fame by 9am. We need CCC to on the CMS and we need it to be done by 9.30am."


Ohhh since I got three newbies, I arrange their tasks and shit...the night before.

Newbie 1: does task A.
Newbie 2: does task B.
Newbie 3: does task C.

Okay, now I have to get my @$$ up and get ready to go to work.

Writing this post on the way to office....and here I am...




What The...*silent*

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Updates:

[9.09am] Somebody-manager called: I need you to do this this this and this.. boleh?
[9.10am] *beep* another message: Sophea, we will be late, sorry. [From the two newbies]

-___-" I'm so freaking speechless....and where the hell is the other newbie go???

the 11th...

It's 11th again, every 11th of the month something is happened; either small or big.

This month I knew thing that I'm not supposed to know and I wish not to know as well but somehow I knew.

I don't like 11th, it made me feel down and sad all the time...as far as I noticed.

And I've got no mood to upload Pete's birthday photos... will update next time I got back my mood... till then~ enjoy the weekend, I hope I do which I don't think I will.

p.s.: I'm moderating all the comments, please don't leave any sensitives comments, okay? Thanks.

I have few entries to post but I chose to post this one first.

• Today, three months ago, I begged a guy to stay in a relationship with me but he dumped me.
• Today, two months ago, I cried myself to sleep every night.
• Today, one months ago, I spoiled my good friend birthday celebration because it was the same day that I've been dumped.
• Today, that guy told me that he will not going anywhere and hope I'm not angry.

I am not angry, seriously.

One thing pissed me off is when he said: we still be friend what. nothing one mah

Fuck!! do I deserve this?

I keep telling him, it's not easy to go over there and why doesn't he wait till get a job first. But no one fucking listen to me. At the end of the day, he dumped me for my fucking own good and now he still around!!

That's great, it make me satisfy now because I have doubt if we are meant to be together or not. Things are clear now, I'm not upset that we can't be together, not anymore because we just don't fucking listen to each other. But hey, he got his chance for dumping me... he won!

p.s. today is pete's birthday celebration, I promise not to spoil it! Else you guys can chop off my head!

Not again...-__-

Hmmm how to describe this feeling... what feeling? is the dejavu feeling...
Two and a half months ago I had this feeling, a week after I broke up.

Now I have this feeling again, of course I don't expect to break up again since I've got no one to break up with.
This time, the voice is whispering to me that there is someone, someone behind all of these...someone is involved with this.

I don't know and I don't want to know too!

I felt jealous, hurt and hate. I'm letting thing go, I just want to live peacefully though it's lonely.

p.s. may be I should re-consider my Pahang trip...

Went to Alamanda to watch The Incredible Hulk last night. It's gonna be Max's last movie in Malaysia for the next one or two or even three months [may be]. Yepp, he's going to Botswana again!

"Please don't make me angry, you will not like me when I'm hungry angry"

This action and Sci-Fi movie is much better than the first one [according to ah miaow! I haven't seen it yet :D]. But hey! it was not bad after all ^_^!!

After movie, we were sooooooo hungry. So we just grabbed a bite at A&W, and without hesitation I ordered this

A&W Root Beer Float

if you have no idea why can't I order it, you've gotta read this lolz.

And I got this...

A&W Onion Ring

No la, after the root beer I almost cough blood already how to eat DEEP FRIED onion ring!! o_o.. I felt like I'm gonna kill myself soon by just eating like this...

Ref.No: 85xxxx
Movie: LONG KHONG 2
Date: SAT 31 MAY
Showtime: 5:50PM
Cinema: GSC(xxxxxxxx)
No. of Seats: 1

Things didn't go the way it used to be.

I don't feel like doing anything at all, I just wanna stay still and stare.

I don't feel like getting up from the bed even I already woke up.

I don't feel like watching my favorite show any more...


Sigh~ my goodness, I miss him [:(]


p.s.: I still alive, so I update the blog.

p.s.s.: RM 600 had already in the bank, thanks god~!!