I am blessed and loved because thy loved

First thing first, this is a belated post. I drafted this last month and completely left it out.

This year is different.

I didn't arrange my own birthday dinners or parties to match with different groups of friends or choice of food and/or location. I just didn't. I just played by ears.

To my surprise, it was a remarkably, in particular, good day. 

Dinner after dinner, cake after cake, gift after gift, drink after drink all weekend.

And those weren't the best part; the best part is when you realized that you are remembered. You are remembered and cared and loved. Someone who cares enough to wish you, cares enough to catch up for a quick coffee or dinner. Cares enough remember what you prefer and like.

That is probably I could ask for, I am so blessed to wake to this great day and continue to be awesome as what God has planned for me.

I couldn't thank you all enough, but I know you know that I love you guys! 

A really early gift from my Krazy princess

A thoughtful gift from Stranger

My favorite (color) necklaces from Reuben and Prav

Another thoughtful gift from Reza and Cheryl

Another favorite gift from Clement and Fezzen

Favorite gift to match the cocktails gift from Ivan and Denise

The you-know-what-I-want-Bitch! gift from the Matabane (answer: it's the summer chair)

Cute gift from Kak Ju

Cake!

Home baked favorite cake (Red Velvet) coats with favor color icing

More delicious cake

The gifts to myself was a sweet sense from Prada

And a pampered get away holiday at Langkawi

p.s. the girl in the picture was not me, I was the one who took the picture. 

Ben Harper - Another Lonely Day

Set The Fire To The Third Bar - Snow Patrol ft. Martha Wainwright

"Set The Fire To The Third Bar"
(feat. Martha Wainwright)

I find the map and draw a straight line
Over rivers, farms, and state lines
The distance from 'A' to where you'd be
It's only finger-lengths that I see
I touch the place where I'd find your face
My fingers in creases of distant dark places

I hang my coat up in the first bar
There is no peace that I've found so far
The laughter penetrates my silence
As drunken men find flaws in science

Their words mostly noises
Ghosts with just voices
Your words in my memory
Are like music to me

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

After I have traveled so far
We'd set the fire to the third bar
We'd share each other like an island
Until exhausted, close our eyelids
And dreaming, pick up from
The last place we left off
Your soft skin is weeping
A joy you can't keep in

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
And I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
and I, I pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms 

Lingering

It's scary and depressed, and desperate knowing what lie ahead waiting for oneself in the future. You've seen it or predict it, you'd be able to change it but what if you did not want to change? And yet, it's torturing to live with it.
There is no what if in this case, I just did not want to change anything yet. I do not know why do I want to preserve this memory and the past to live with me in the future, but somehow, that is so far the most comforting to have at the moment.
Would you cry over the lost of something you've never had?

The pathway

Remembering how calm my parent were during the bad times we went through and never to let us know and feel disturb or scare. I wonder if I could be like them one day.
From actions, they tough us to be ourselves, to be brave, to embrace the little things that we were given and earn. To understand one whom is going through stages that might not fall in our radar.

Couple of times, I gave up. I gave away the path I was hesitate to choose. I was undecided till time decide them for me. And I'm regret, yes, I still am.
Questioning myself why I gave up certain opportunities before that were given to set up a new stage of life. Is there something that I'm waiting for? Is there anything else beside this?
I'm anxious to know and hope that there will be more.

For the one whom had asked me for opportunity and I gave you up, thank you and I'm sorry for gave you up.
To you, whom I still believe in, thank you for asking before. Now might not be the perfect path, but I'm glad we meet again.

I am learning to accept those decisions and results, it's not easy. For any of you whom find it hard to do so, I hear you. Let's move on and stay positive for a better path that we are moving to, for another opportunity that is always around us. Don't occupied yourself with things that you cannot change, accept and learn them. Keep searching, keep seeking, keep living.

With the recent travelings and events, I learned to love myself a little bit more. That I was given opportunity to explore life, to learn, to taste and most of all value and remember what happiness is.

Another small step of getting to know where I wanna be. A small step but a step.

At Kiraku Japanese Restaurant

Recently Cyberjaya development grows really fast, lots of resident areas and shop lots. New restaurants were introduced, some are good and some aren't especially Tappers (they are horrible base on my opinion)

Today I visited a new Japanese restaurant at Shafbury business centre. Cozy and comfy, service was ok, staffs are polite and food quality was not bad as well. But it has Cyberjaya's pricing, the limiting and have-to-pay-pricing, a.k.a quite expensive. But I supposed it was a trade between driving out to bigger town and spending money on petrol, toll, parking and time.

Love their decoration!

Maguro steak, tuna steak which intentionally cook and taste like red meat steak. It's pretty good.

I ordered maguro steak, beef and tempora set, and Saba shioyaki; and the bill came RM 132.

Food: 7/10
Service: 7.5/10
Environment: 8/10
Pricing: 6/10
Overall rating: 7/10

The recollection

Since early last year, I have only to remember to stock up hard liquor and beers... And recently I'm craving for the long lasting flavor and full mouth bitter flavor from wine. So it's time to stock up.

So last Sunday I finished up the whole bottle, with a little help from a friend though :), of a full bodies Nederburge Cabernet Sauvignon and Shiraz 2010 from South Africa. It was a pretty selection.

Claret Chateau de Poriton Cabernet Sauvignon, France, a little too sour for me though. Would be nice with red medium rare meat. That reminded me of the grilled wagyu beef I had in my last trip to Kota Kinabalu.

So I ended up bought a couple more bottles to endure the taste a little longer.

Added to my very own minibar which locates in my bedroom for easy access whenever I feel like it.

Ahhh what a good feeling by just looking at them.

Anyhow, Chinese New Year is around the corner and I would like to wish everyone a prosperous and blessing year a head.
Till then happy holidays and have a safe journey wherever you are heading to ;)

The first step

“The first step to solving any problem is recognizing there is one.” [Will McAvoy]

Limited edition Cointreau by Alexis Mabille

This is the 4th bottle this month...

Breakin' A Sweat

I came upon one of the Skrillex's song, and I kinda like it; I mean it's good for running. I will keep it on loop when I go for a run. So I look up just to see what is the lyric like, well, just like every other of Skrillex's songs, not much in content. I know I sounded silly now, but look here, that's all in the entire song.

"Breakin' A Sweat"

(with The Doors)

I'm breaking a sweat - It's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - I'm sayin' it's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - It's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - Come on baby light my fire!

I'm breaking a sweat - It's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - I'm sayin' it's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - It's alright!

I'm breaking a sweat - Woo! That's good! 

Anyway, here is the music video, enjoy!