A lot has been happening for the past couple of months. There were ups and downs, it was exciting and yet thrilling and some hard decisions have to be made in such sort period.
I am so so stress and so blessed at the same time, just an odd mix feeling.
I just wanna lye down on the sun launcher and sipping beers, blankly starring to the sky, and shut down my mind some time.
Anyway, will be updating more soon. For now, this song keeps me hopes up.
Mumfords & Son - I will wait
Well I came home
Like a stone
And I fell heavy into your arms
These days of darkness
Which we've known
Will blow away with this new sun
But I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground
'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
So break my step
And relent
Well you forgave and I won't forget
Know what we've seen
And him with less
Now in some ways
Shake the excess
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Now I'll be bold
As well as strong
And use my head alongside my heart
So tame my flesh
And fix my eyes
A tethered mind freed from the lies
And I'll kneel down
Wait for now
And I'll kneel down
Know my ground
Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
Bow my head
Keep my heart slow
'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
And I will wait, I will wait for you
Songwriters
LOVETT, BENJAMIN WALTER DAVID / MUMFORD, MARCUS OLIVER JOHNSTONE / DWANE, EDWARD JAMES MILTON / MARSHALL, WINSTON AUBREY ALADAR
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Tuesday, November 12, 2013
A short trip home
Last week I went back home for a quick holiday and also to attend my cousin's wedding. But before I arrived home, I have made sure that I will seIe the beach first. I know, that's sound naughty, but a girl just wanna have fun...or a woman T_T
Anyway, just a quick update here with a few pictures. And I probably should post my London, Langkawi, Kuching, and Melbourne trip soon T__T Sorryness.
In front of the chalets, the view is amazing
Anyway, just a quick update here with a few pictures. And I probably should post my London, Langkawi, Kuching, and Melbourne trip soon T__T Sorryness.
On the way to Kep, Cambodia
A small port near the chalet that lead to Rabbit Island, Kep, Cambodia
My morning breakfast view, it was so serene
In front of the chalets, the view is amazing
Kep Beach
A long the way going up to Borko Mountain, Kep
An abandon building on Borko Mountain, Kep, Cambodia
The urn in Sompov Pram Temple, Borko Mountain, Kep
Borko Waterfall
Oh and I was being a tourist for two days since one of my friends was visiting Cambodia as well. The funny part was she looks more Cambodian than I am, so I ended up being asked for the entrance ticket while no one bothering her *facepalm*
The Cambodia National Museum
Happy 60th Independence Cambodia!
And here to my beautiful cousin: May you grow old with your prince charming and live happily ever after!
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Redefining
Redefining.
I was asked: how close are you both?
It's startled me. I started to ask the same question to myself. How close are we? How do you define closeness?
When you shared personal stuffs or thoughts or what went through your mind and all? Does that mean you both are close? How would you know if the conversation that were relaying to you are the facts or means anything? This has been mingling in my head for days now.
1. Why would I think it's not the fact? Ermmm to be honest I would use the word Truth.
2. Due to number 1 question, I doubt the relationship.
I observe people as I interact, I learn the fact about the behaviors, how they deal with certain circumstances provided with what they have. I try to remove and note the negative vibes and pick up the positive ones. It has not been easy, but I'm getting there.
There are time, people, and place that you know that it is the fact and it is the truth without second thought. As we grow, we learned, an experience, it has became part of us. Becomes and instinct of what about to happen and what can you do to prevent or deal or live with it. It doesn't mean it's all problems. Could be anything, could be a challenge, an achievement, getting to know someone, so on and so forth.
This part of the journey, has been challenging and exciting and painful; and sometime all of them at once. When I have doubt in a relationship, I go back to see what have done so far? Where have we been? Has it all been a lie? Or does mean that I have new things to learn to accept and to live with this new behavior that I have not encountered before?
Don't get me wrong, I am referring to the general and normal relationship here. It could been anything. It just the way of human lives. We all have new things to learn every new day.
So given the time that I know the person and how much I have known them today, I would answer: Yes, we are close. And we click that is why we get along in such a short period and can actually tell one and another. I need to give them and myself more time to learn about each other and from each other. That would teach me how to trust in a relationship and no doubt shall be given.
I am redefining this journey, a few things, starting from this relationship. To make it better, to keep us all closer.
I was asked: how close are you both?
It's startled me. I started to ask the same question to myself. How close are we? How do you define closeness?
When you shared personal stuffs or thoughts or what went through your mind and all? Does that mean you both are close? How would you know if the conversation that were relaying to you are the facts or means anything? This has been mingling in my head for days now.
1. Why would I think it's not the fact? Ermmm to be honest I would use the word Truth.
2. Due to number 1 question, I doubt the relationship.
I observe people as I interact, I learn the fact about the behaviors, how they deal with certain circumstances provided with what they have. I try to remove and note the negative vibes and pick up the positive ones. It has not been easy, but I'm getting there.
There are time, people, and place that you know that it is the fact and it is the truth without second thought. As we grow, we learned, an experience, it has became part of us. Becomes and instinct of what about to happen and what can you do to prevent or deal or live with it. It doesn't mean it's all problems. Could be anything, could be a challenge, an achievement, getting to know someone, so on and so forth.
This part of the journey, has been challenging and exciting and painful; and sometime all of them at once. When I have doubt in a relationship, I go back to see what have done so far? Where have we been? Has it all been a lie? Or does mean that I have new things to learn to accept and to live with this new behavior that I have not encountered before?
Don't get me wrong, I am referring to the general and normal relationship here. It could been anything. It just the way of human lives. We all have new things to learn every new day.
So given the time that I know the person and how much I have known them today, I would answer: Yes, we are close. And we click that is why we get along in such a short period and can actually tell one and another. I need to give them and myself more time to learn about each other and from each other. That would teach me how to trust in a relationship and no doubt shall be given.
I am redefining this journey, a few things, starting from this relationship. To make it better, to keep us all closer.
Monday, May 13, 2013
Lingering
It's scary and depressed, and desperate knowing what lie ahead waiting for oneself in the future. You've seen it or predict it, you'd be able to change it but what if you did not want to change? And yet, it's torturing to live with it.
There is no what if in this case, I just did not want to change anything yet. I do not know why do I want to preserve this memory and the past to live with me in the future, but somehow, that is so far the most comforting to have at the moment.
Would you cry over the lost of something you've never had?
There is no what if in this case, I just did not want to change anything yet. I do not know why do I want to preserve this memory and the past to live with me in the future, but somehow, that is so far the most comforting to have at the moment.
Would you cry over the lost of something you've never had?
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
The Nation's Greatest Lost
Deepest condolences to the Nation’s greatest lost, RIP King Norodom Sihanouk.
Chinese police escorted Cambodia’s former King Norodom Sihanouk’s body from a Beijing hospital to the airport Wednesday, October 17th, 2012, morning for its return to Phnom Penh, where tens of thousands are expected to line a mourning route. King Norodom Sihanouk’s body will remain in the palace for three months, during which time the public can pay respects before it is cremated according to Buddhist ritual. [Boston.com]
Though, I am not in the country, the sorrow shed and I felt the heart ache as the beloved former king had passed.
There's no party that never end. And this is the end of his journey, life goes on and another to begin.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. [Psalm 34:18].
[ Read more: http://world.time.com/2012/10/15/cambodias-mercurial-former-king-norodom-sihanouk-dead-at-89/#ixzz29Wj4vu93 ]
Monday, October 08, 2012
Discrete delusions
Monday returns and I am reluctant to move and get myself off bed to work, though I know I feel rather ridiculously unproductive since i was unfocused since the past couple of days.
The past weekend was eventful, sport, orchestra, party and friends gathering. Weirdly, I found myself lost in an unknown track. I felt empty.
The beautiful orchestra pieces were played, the violinists drown themselves in the rhythm and yet I was rather feel uneasy knowing I was missing out something else while I'm listening to this.
Something I thought I would never need it since I stepped out and fight with the world, and today I found myself eager in a delusional feeling and longing for it.
The pictures came clearer of what I want and what I need. I listen to myself and gasp why didn't I realize this a little bit earlier. I'm lost in words.
With doubt, I need to be stronger if I decided that this is what I want. Discipline and rules to be complied.
This has to be done soon enough.
The past weekend was eventful, sport, orchestra, party and friends gathering. Weirdly, I found myself lost in an unknown track. I felt empty.
The beautiful orchestra pieces were played, the violinists drown themselves in the rhythm and yet I was rather feel uneasy knowing I was missing out something else while I'm listening to this.
Something I thought I would never need it since I stepped out and fight with the world, and today I found myself eager in a delusional feeling and longing for it.
The pictures came clearer of what I want and what I need. I listen to myself and gasp why didn't I realize this a little bit earlier. I'm lost in words.
With doubt, I need to be stronger if I decided that this is what I want. Discipline and rules to be complied.
This has to be done soon enough.
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