Redefining

Redefining.
I was asked: how close are you both?
It's startled me. I started to ask the same question to myself. How close are we? How do you define closeness?
When you shared personal stuffs or thoughts or what went through your mind and all? Does that mean you both are close? How would you know if the conversation that were relaying to you are the facts or means anything? This has been mingling in my head for days now.
1. Why would I think it's not the fact? Ermmm to be honest I would use the word Truth.
2. Due to number 1 question, I doubt the relationship.

I observe people as I interact, I learn the fact about the behaviors, how they deal with certain circumstances provided with what they have. I try to remove and note the negative vibes and pick up the positive ones. It has not been easy, but I'm getting there.
There are time, people, and place that you know that it is the fact and it is the truth without second thought. As we grow, we learned, an experience, it has became part of us. Becomes and instinct of what about to happen and what can you do to prevent or deal or live with it. It doesn't mean it's all problems. Could be anything, could be a challenge, an achievement, getting to know someone, so on and so forth.

This part of the journey, has been challenging and exciting and painful; and sometime all of them at once. When I have doubt in a relationship, I go back to see what have done so far? Where have we been? Has it all been a lie? Or does mean that I have new things to learn to accept and to live with this new behavior that I have not encountered before?

Don't get me wrong, I am referring to the general and normal relationship here. It could been anything. It just the way of human lives. We all have new things to learn every new day.

So given the time that I know the person and how much I have known them today, I would answer: Yes, we are close. And we click that is why we get along in such a short period and can actually tell one and another. I need to give them and myself more time to learn about each other and from each other. That would teach me how to trust in a relationship and no doubt shall be given.

I am redefining this journey, a few things, starting from this relationship. To make it better, to keep us all closer.

The first step

“The first step to solving any problem is recognizing there is one.” [Will McAvoy]

Discrete delusions

Monday returns and I am reluctant to move and get myself off bed to work, though I know I feel rather ridiculously unproductive since i was unfocused since the past couple of days.

The past weekend was eventful, sport, orchestra, party and friends gathering. Weirdly, I found myself lost in an unknown track. I felt empty.
The beautiful orchestra pieces were played, the violinists drown themselves in the rhythm and yet I was rather feel uneasy knowing I was missing out something else while I'm listening to this.

Something I thought I would never need it since I stepped out and fight with the world, and today I found myself eager in a delusional feeling and longing for it.

The pictures came clearer of what I want and what I need. I listen to myself and gasp why didn't I realize this a little bit earlier. I'm lost in words.

With doubt, I need to be stronger if I decided that this is what I want. Discipline and rules to be complied.

This has to be done soon enough.

Christmasy

Christmas is around the corner, and I'm feeling very Christmasy from now... Gotta do Christmas shopping, peru planning la la la...

Into the Centre & the Gala Night @Auditorium Bandayara, DBKL

Attended the premier and the gala night yesterday at auditorium bandaraya, DBKL. Into the Centre is a contemporary performing arts produced by Sutra Dance Theatre (Malaysia)and Battery Dance Company(New York) under the direction of Ramli Ibrahim and Jonathan Hollander. The premier night was sponsored by US Embassy in Malaysia.

The performance was rather extraordinary. This is my first time watching a contemporary performance. As far as I knew and heard of it is a rough performance. You need to really understand the art to certain level then you will appreciate the performances. I need more study on this, no?

Keep moving forward

committed to the commitment.

Broga hill

My friends and I went to Broga hill sometime in April, it was supposed to be a sun-rise-catching-trip kinda thing but we missed it.

Nevertheless, it was something new. Fresh air and different scenes. Join the journey were:

Adorable Cheryl

Hairy Reza

Cam-whore queen, Miaow

and my tarling, Ah Ma

We reached after 7+, it was bright sunny day. The light was really hash, the sky was dull and the weather was hot and who said it was easy to hike? No, it was not. Ok, maybe I'm not good in hiking but it was freaking scary at time. Well, the view worth the climb after all.




















Ermmm I should go out more often, the rate of being anti-social is going up like a bitch! Where's next?

If only I could share it with you, love.

You were looking for me, heh?

After months of being idle in blog... I'm back. Well, no guarantee for how long though just that I still remember that I have a blog.
Speaking of being idle, blogging was not the only thing I was being idle. Baking and Photography were pretty much dusty and rusty.

So I'm trying to squeeze the time to get back on my feet with these stuffs. It's not easy but I'm working on it. So bare with me, alright?

Vanilla cupcake after months of no baking

this is actually supposed to be vanilla pie cupcake, but I didn't take any picture when the final look is done (were busy eating' em instead).

Hope there will be more to come soon :)

Stumbled upon this and thought it is beautiful.

Have a joyous weekend~

Pool class is in session people! hahahaha

nothing much to say...that's all I ask for...

p.s. picture taken from Google Images

Flintstones... Meet the Flintstones,

They're a modern stoneage family.
From the town of Bedrock,
They're a page right out of history.

Let's ride with the family down the street.
Through the courtesy of Fred's two feet.

When you're with the Flintstones,
have a yabba dabba doo time,
a dabba doo time,
we'll have a gay old time

Happy 50th Anniversary of The Flinstone

John 3:16

I just got back from casual day outing with friend, this is what make me smile after a long day....

This is where it got interested...

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. [John 3:16]

Buka Puasa Dinner

Just few days before Raya, I asked my team and couple more colleagues out for Buka Puasa Dinner. I'm glad I did, seeing them getting along was a great joy.

It was a buffet dinner at Seri Penang, Cyberjaya, each person is only RM 36+. There were about 10+ choices of meal, desserts and drink. I say this is reasonable price.

Su with her great smile

master Dzul

Group Photo

Oh, I didn't mention my boss join us? Sorry, he did. I informed him that we will leave early for the dinner plan and invited as well, surprisingly, he came hehe.

Ok, here's the deal, two things I've learn from this dinner....
Ok, it might has nothing to do with the dinner.... it's the photo!
1. Always always remember not to use Aperture priority mode when taking group photo T_T
2. Always always check VR feature.

Anyway folks, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and Maaf Zahir Batin to all my Muslim friends and readers and Happy Holidays to all. Have wonderful weekends and may God blesses.

finally i managed to visit wondermilk... And yes the cupcakes are good....hehe



Didn't bring my camera so...the photo taken with phone camera and post from phone too.